Gah I need help.
I thought I could do it.
I thought I could move on.
I can’t. I don’t know if I even want to anymore.
I know I’m pathetic. I know I’m stupid I know that I need to move on. Get over it. But I can’t.
I’m stuck here, wanting her. Wanting to fix all the things we had wrong. We could do that now. We could fix all those things. It would work now.
But it’s too late. She isn’t thinking about that. She isn’t missing me. She has moved on. She has not only moved on. She has found someone she wants to spend the rest of her life with.
I remember when we told each other that. Empty words now I guess.
That’s what hurts the most I think. Knowing that we could make it work now. We figured out why it wasn’t working. Let’s make it work now. But we can’t. And I can’t accept that. I can’t just try again with someone else.
It hurts so much.
But I know it shouldn’t. I know it’s pathetic. I know I’m a sad sack of shit.
"There are plenty of other girls" I know
“Your relationship had heaps of problems.” I know
“You fought all the time” I know
“you learn from relationships and apply it to the next one.” I know.
“She doesn’t want you” I know
I fucking know.
Why does it still hurt.
Fuck, I’m a whiny bitch.
Boohoo you broke up. Get over it.
I don’t even know if I have followers. I wonder if anyone reads the rubbish I post here.